Matt Nathanson's Lyrics

BUY : SOME MAD HOPE >> Buy on iTunes	SOME MAD HOPE car crash come on get higher heartbreak world gone wedding dress bulletproof weeks to the beat of our noisy hearts still detroit waves falling apart sooner surrender all we are (click song for lyrics)
BUY : BENEATH THESE FIREWORKS >> Buy on iTunes	BENEATH THESE FIREWORKS angel suspended sad songs i saw bare little victories pretty the world curve of the earth bent lucky boy weight of it all sing me sweet (click song for lyrics)
BUY : WHEN EVERYTHING MEANT EVERYTHING >> Buy on iTunes	WHEN EVERYTHING MEANT EVERYTHING pretty the world fall to pieces princess weight of it all bent (click song for lyrics)
BUY : STILL WAITING FOR SPRING >> Buy on iTunes	STILL WAITING FOR SPRING parade wings lucky boy loud answering machine then i'll be smiling more than this everything you say it sounds like gospel amazing again little victories (click song for lyrics)
BUY : NOT COLORED TOO PERFECT >> Buy on iTunes	NOT COLORED TOO PERFECT all been said before church clothes new coats and new hats wait up you're smiling miracles clean somewhere to hide vandalized trace of a cat's eye (click song for lyrics)
BUY : ERNST >> Buy on iTunes	ERNST first time church clothes we'll recover measure for measure new coats and new hats all been said before wide eyed and full miracles somewhere to hide maid (click song for lyrics)
BUY : PLEASE >>` Buy on iTunes	PLEASE solace and pain continue dreaming king of the mountain broken illusions hold me never forget my memories lost myself in search of you pity lie naked don't worship me harbor (click song for lyrics) back to top
Some Mad Hope car crash i'm wide awake and so alive, ringing like a bell. tell me this is paradise and not some place i fell. cause i keep on falling. i want to feel the car crash i want to feel the capsize i want to feel the bomb drop, the earth stop, til i'm satisfied i want to feel the carcrash cause i'm dying on the inside i want to let go and know that i'll be alright, alright. push me til i have to fly i've shed my skin, my scars and take me deep out past the lights where nothing dims these stars. i want to feel the car crash i want to feel the capsize i want to feel the bomb drop, the earth stop, til i'm satisfied i want to feel the carcrash cause i'm dying on the inside i want to let go and know that i'll be alright, alright. [back to top]
come on get higher i miss the sound of your voice and i miss the rush of your skin and i miss the still of the silence as you breathe out, and i breathe in. if i could walk on water, if i could tell you what's next i'd make you believe, i'd make you forget so, come on get higher loosen my lips faith and desire in the swing of your hips. just pull me down hard and drown me in love i miss the sound of your voice the loudest thing in my head and i ache to remember all the violent, sweet, perfect words that you said. if i could walk on water, if i could tell you what's next i'd make you believe, i'd make you forget so, come on get higher loosen my lips faith and desire in the swing of your hips. just pull me down hard and drown me in love i miss the pull of your heart i taste the sparks on your tongue and i see angels and devils and god when you come on hold on. hold on. love. sing sha la la love. sing sha la la love. it's all wrong. it's all wrong. it's all right cause everything works in your arms. [back to top]
heartbreak world let's all pack up and move this year we'll slip the liars and disappear we'll leave memories for auctioneers and those just standing still they'll miss the taste of wanting you call out your name, like i still do. but they haven't said a word that's true and they only hold you down in this heartbreak world of just imagine with it's tired talk of better days. in this heartbreak world, where nothing matters come on, let's make this dream that's barely half awake come true let's move out of los angeles and just drive until this summer gives and forget the lives we use to live cause we're gone. in this heartbreak world of just imagine with it's tired talk of better days. in this heartbreak world, where nothing matters come on, let's make this dream that's barely half awake come true [back to top]
gone love, i'm aching to believe give me something real enough give me somewhere to fall from cause in the dark i can't find my feet built my world on promises. colorless and cold. and i'm short of breath. i'm sure... gone, let it wash away. all the best i had. i'm gone and when i disappear, don't expect me back. lost, the sweetest things get lost in the static. the far away painted pictures of you i fold. don't want to be holy then don't want to be sold again, the way i was with you. i'm short of breath. i'm sure.... gone, let it wash away. the best i had i'm gone and when i disappear, don't expect me back. at it's worst, the heart is sober at it's worst, the heart is cold. [back to top]
wedding dress so we lie here in the dark all the wrong things on fire in sickness and in health to be with you, just to be with you and in your wedding dress, to have and to hold. even at my best, i want to let go and you hold me in your arms when all that i can see is my future in your hands and all that i can feel is how long ever after is when it's all that i can do to be with. just to be with you. in your wedding dress, to have and to hold. even at my best, i want to let go. thought i lost you thought i lost you, i gave you away thought i lost you been jealous of the moon for how it moves the waves. and i want to be somebody else now and i want to thicken my skin and i want to wish it all away again and i want to be somebody else and i want to be holding you in and i want to be missing you, love missing you, love with all that i have left to give. [back to top]
bulletproof weeks somewhere in between the beginning and the end september took the tourists and settled in for good. we could hear the trains again brooklyn girls in scarves summer left and no one said a word and we'd open your window and stay in your bed all day 'til the streetlights came on what happened to bulletproof weeks in your arms what happened to feeling cheap radio songs what happened to thinking the world was flat what happened to that so up on 59th st. right before the rains lovers catching taxis going downtown i'm talking to what's left of you i'm watching what i say counting all the freckles on your perfect face you open your window, i sit on your bed just waiting for right words to come so, what happened to bulletproof weeks in your arms what happened to feeling cheap radio songs what happened to thinking the world was flat what happened to that was i wrong? [back to top]
to the beat of our noisy hearts she don't lie in bed at night staring at the ceiling she don't wait to begin. she bets on long shots she wants what they've got she skates where the ice thins. on and on, we keep going crowded like subway cars on and on, to the beat of our noisy hearts. she was her mother's secret she was daddy's girl she brought weekend boys home in her curls she said my love is a fever c'mon touch my skin they all think i'm easy... well, i'm easy cause i let them win. on and on, we keep going crowded like subway cars on and on, to the beat of our noisy hearts. she said. pick up the phone cause i need to get more alone and your voice drives me crazy. [back to top]
still i remember hearts that beat yeah, yeah i remember you and me yeah, oh yeah tangled in hotel sheets you wore me out, you wore me out. i remember honey lips and words so true i remember non-stop earthquake dreams of you coming on fast, like good dreams do all night long still can feel you kiss me, love. still can see your brown skin shining. still can feel you kiss me, love come on and drive me wild and you moved like water, yeah. and we rolled like waves never been deeper, so far gone your sister in the next room with the television on. i remember hearts that beat, yeah i remember you and me tangled in hotel sheets for hours. [back to top]
detroit waves so, we let it go to start again knowing now how all are best intentions, never lit the world on fire. and the lights illuminate the exit signs over the wings the sky's an open endless sea crowding up surrounding me and all of detroit waves goodnight spread out beneath me now if i could change, believe me i would i would for you and when you're warm enough to share your sheets cold enough to make it seem like i was only there long enough to disappear well, i'll still say your name to fall asleep over and over a cynic saying rosary, a liar living make believe and all of detroit waves goodnight spread out beneath me now if i could change, believe me i would i would. and detroit waves. it comes around, around, around again. [back to top]
falling apart maybe it's because i'm crazy or maybe it's because i just can't honestly tell you what i want. it's never enough to stay still and hold you, to break loose and run, the taste of you, wild on my tongue am i no good to you now? yeah, we're spilling over. we're falling away spent my days with doctors and my nights with crooks and all of them, would sell me for a song so i'm here safe dear, fiction in your arms. am i no good to you now? i'm falling apart we're spilling over i'm falling apart don't dim me out, don't start me over forever changed, i should have told you and all i say doesn't matter anyway all i say doesn't matter anyway i've given up, so call my bluff cause i just need to be reminded who i am i'm falling apart yeah, we're spilling over i'm giving up, i'm starting over i want to be the one who holds you. i so want to be loved so come on, love. come on, love. [back to top]
sooner surrender in the party lull, some bands playing "hallelujah" in the corner, the all night girls drink wine and try to sing along i've made a mess of things, my stops and in betweens they weigh me down but you got someone new singing you your songs now i'd sooner surrender, then watch the last wall collapse i'd sooner surrender, then our love would count for everything. in my sweetest dreams, its just you and me and we break wide i wake reminded love, of how i just gave up and how you moved on i'm waiting for something, i've waited for now for the rolling canyons of love but i'm tongue tied and your coming alive, coming alive. sooner surrender, then watch the last wall collapse i'd sooner surrender, then our love would count for everything i'm sorry that you're gone so sorry that you're gone. i'm sorry that you're gone, love so sorry that you've gone away you're a little bit right. more than a little bit right with my arms around you [back to top]
all we are i tasted, tasted love so sweet and all of it was lost on me bought and sold like property sugar on my tongue. i kept falling over kept looking backwards i went broke believing that the simple should be hard all we are, we are all we are, we are and every day's a start at something beautiful i wasted, wasted love for you trading out for something new well, it's hard to change the way you lose if you think you've never won all we are, we are all we are, we are and every day's a start at something beautiful and in the end, the words don't matter cause in the end, nothing stays the same and in the end, the dreams just scatter and fall like rain [back to top]
sing me sweet 5am, undressed in your static, your mess i don't need any new voices i'm thick enough with superstitions and choices way home a little bit of something maybe just a way home sing me sweet sing me low say you'll never let me go cause I've gone long enough waiting for wonderful sing me sweet sing me low say you'll never let me go so won't you stay and never fail never let me go If i could stay like this in the give of your lips in the dim halflight dawn pinned below your undertow when everything meant everything again way home a little bit of something maybe just a way home sing me low say you'll never let me go cause I've gone long enough waiting for wonderful sing me sweet sing me low say you'll never let me go so won't you stay and never fail never let me go [back to top] sad songs been waiting up for you to rescue me to come around and cover everything relying on my best memories to breathe for me, breathe for me i'm so much better than all this...all of this i'm tired of singing all the sad songs in my head but i can't find enough of anything to drown out what you said and sometimes i find i catch myself letting you back in but i'm so tired of singing all the sad songs in my head i can still smell summer on your skin i can still remember giving in wrapped all up in your hips and in your sheets it felt great falling, great falling i'm so much better than all this... all of this i'm tired of singing all the sad songs in my head but i can't find enough of anything to drown out what you said and sometimes i find i catch myself letting you back in but i'm so tired of singing all the sad songs in my head feel so faded. so far gone nothing suprises me anymore i feel so faded. so far gone nothing suprises me anymore i'm tired of singing all the sad songs in my head but i can't find enough of anything to drown out what you said and sometimes i find i catch myself letting you back in but i'm so tired of singing all the sad songs in my head [back to top] bare in the light, in the daylight it's all wrong to revel in your memory the smell of your body and the seconds that it kept me warm now i'm coming down, hitting ground, breaking open twisted around the sweet sound of the lies you told when you were broken they've gone away and i'm so sorry cause your wide awake and planning parties for all the fools who've gone and left you bare and you said in all your tragedy you'd rather hide in mine i was so warm, so sad you said i made your whole world shine now i'm coming down, hitting ground, breaking open twisted around the sweet sound of the lies you told when you were broken they've gone away and i'm so sorry cause your wide awake and planning parties for all the fools who've gone and left you bare they left you there and now i'm gone with all the fools who left you bare they left you there say so long dear [back to top] curve of the earth i tried to come down from you i tried with your voice in my head knocking me back every inch i moved i'm a sucker for a good lie the way you say you understand and how you always talk of catching me but never open up your hands tell me does the world revolve the same? tell me do the people all take care of you did you doubt the curve of the earth? and every word...every word. i bet you would i know you're here to catch your breath but i'm not listening for the right words anymore i'll take whats left you're vicious like the blue sky right before the rain comes pouring through tell me does he look like me at all? cause they're all an awful lot like you... tell me does the world revolve the same? tell me do the people all take care of you did you doubt the curve of the earth? and every word...every word tell me does the world look all insane and do the people all just scare you and did you doubt the curve of the earth and every word...every word. i bet you would [back to top] bent if i bent like you said was best would that change a thing? if i spent myself 'til nothings left would you still leave me here? you're so sorry about it all now that it's over should i thank you for that dear? you're so sorry about it all and i hope you'll always be i remember you best hating all the boys who got to you and all the things they took that you'd kept for yourself every car crash, every misstep, every word you're so sorry about it all now that it's over should i thank you for that dear? you're so sorry about it all and i hope you'll always be always be i remember you best hating all the boys who got to you and all the things they took from you again it's all wrong all wrong [back to top] i saw it's amazing the look in your eyes like you could save me but you won't even try then you tell me again how everything will be alright if I told you that i'm sorry would you tell me you were wrong? or would you hold me down forever if i came to you for answers i saw pictures in my head and i swear i saw you opening up again and i would be heavenly if baby you'd just rescue me now while I'm surrounded, you spill all alive and brand new and i'll forget about you long enough to forget why i need to i saw pictures in my head and i swear i saw you opening up again and i would be heavenly if baby you'd just rescue me now the days are drifting away from me i still wake up burning through everthing it's all i know somebody save me now and i saw pictures in my head and i swear i saw you opening up again and i would be heavenly if baby you'd just rescue me now [back to top] lucky boy took your words like you said i should and look what good they've done me i played support system, you played victim and look at what good it's done and you trip me up leave me strangled with your awkward, untouchable lips it's a cruel world, i've found it's a cruel world, and i'm a lucky boy you're so glorious, a waste of time you're the safety in lying you are radiator heat, you're the winter blanket's sleep you're the excuse that i use when i want to stop trying and start waiting for the sky to fall it's a cruel world, i've found it's a cruel world, and i'm a lucky boy it's a cruel world, i've found it's a cruel world, and i am a lucky boy you're not gold to me i was wrong you're not gold and there'll be centuries left when you're gone [back to top] weight of it all i'm weak when you miss me when you roll me on your tongue when you whisper me your best moves i almost believe you but you don't know me at all i'm covered by lovers who recite lines convinced that their bodies are gonna save mine but you don't know me at all show me where the sun comes through the sky i'll show you where the rain gets in and i'll show you hurricanes and the way that summer fades underneath the weight of it all i spent days stupid nailed to your floor and i spent nights pushed against you trying to keep warm but you don't know me at all show me where the sun comes through the sky i'll show you where the rain gets in and i'll show you hurricanes and the way that summer fades underneath the weight of it all [back to top] pretty the world they tied off your arms with all their pretty charms and the same bad lines that always get you... always get you and you hate the way they wash you down and summer hums heavy now... still you bolded all your best words so they'd have something to wrap their mouths around show me how pretty the world is cause i envy the way that you move show me how pretty the world is cause i want something a little bit louder all spun awake I'm twisted in your heat god, you're always burning up so bright when there's someone there by your side well just take me home cause I'm a mess enough clean and I'll lie until I believe show me how pretty the world is cause i envy the way that you move show me how pretty the world is cause i want something a little bit louder show me how pretty the world is you're brilliant when you try show me how pretty the whole world is tonight i never thought that i could be who i am i never thought that i could see where i was i never thought that all this was wasn't me i always thought all this was could never be i never thought that i could be who i am i never thought that i could see where i was i never thought that all this was wasn't me wasn't me now show me how pretty the world is cause i envy the way that you move show me how pretty the world is cause i want something a little bit louder show me how pretty the world is you're brilliant when you try show me how pretty the whole world is tonight [back to top] angel you sounded so good on the phone all moved up and all moved on me and gravity, we never could agree but i can almost see the sky when i need to, i close me eyes you're the only thing that's worth holding onto angel you sing about beautiful things and all i want to do is believe but i traded my dreams for this mess of memories and they just stopped working for me now i'm not a monster i believe like a liar would believe helps me navigate the wooden smiles, the raging seas and all my heroes pull their heads like a fighter would, i guess no one ever really likes getting older angel you sing about beautiful things and all i want to do is believe but i traded my dreams for this mess of memories and they just stopped working for me [back to top] little victories this time i'll be sailing no more bailing boats for me i'll be out here on the sea just my confidence and me and i'll be awful sometimes weakened to my knees but i'll learn to get by on the little victories this time i'll have no fear i'll be standing strong and tall turn my back towards them all and i'll be awful sometimes weakened to my knees but i'll learn to get by on the little victories [back to top] suspended when you lead me and fit around my tounge it's so easy, to forget that i'm lost spent all of my life waiting for something to lift me, to numb me, to define it all sunshine, i'm beginning to like this cause all i want to be is the minute that you hold me in when you pretend that i'm all that you waited for time slips to nothing and i'm better than i've ever been i'm suspended with your breathing, filling up my lungs i can almost believe that i'm almost enough spent all of my life emptied of anthems and bracing for something that never did come sunshine, i'm beginning to like this sunshine, i'm beginning to like it cause all i want to be is the minute that you hold me in when you pretend that i'm all that you waited for time slips to nothing and i'm better than i've ever been i'm suspended it's not enough to stay surrounded it's not enough to stay awake, torn, braced, cornered and not feel alive [back to top] WHEN EVERYTHING MEANT EVERYTHING pretty the world they tied off your arms with all their pretty charms and the same bad lines that always get you and you hate the way they wash you down and summer hums heavy now... still you bolded all your best words so they'd have something to wrap their mouths around. show me how pretty the world is. cause i envy the way that you move show me how pretty the world is.. Cause i want something just a little bit louder all spun awake twisted in the heat... you're always burning up so bright when there's someone there by your side. well just take me home cause i'm a mess enough clean and i'll lie until i believe show me how pretty the world is. Cause i envy the way that you move show me how pretty the world is...cause i want something just a little bit louder show me how pretty the world is cause you're brilliant when you try show me how pretty the whole world is tonight i never thought that i could be who i am i never thought that i could see where i was i always thought that all this was just wasn't me i always thought that all this was could never be i never thought that i could be who i am i never thought that i could see where i was i always thought that all this was just wasn't me i always thought i'd wait here for you [back to top] fall to pieces so i wear you out... so who would've thought that you'd still be here now and i swore dear that i never wanted to be any better than your weakest moment now would you fall to pieces if i never came back? tear it all apart til there was nothing left would you fall to pieces if i never came back... spent so long waiting here this was all sweet once when i was fingertips and innocence and too scared to let go i had my arms thread through the pretty holes of your most romantic line would you fall to pieces if i never came back? tear it all apart til there was nothing left would you fall to pieces if i never came back spent so long waiting here and i've watched them all move through you yeah, I've watched them all let you down. it's do you and don't you cause i won't forget you you filled me with nothing it felt so good it'll all come out some day [back to top] princess oh princess you make the party with your hands in your pockets and your innocent eyes and all those things running around in your head oh princess you make the party you've been everybody's darling now everybody's win bold for the boys who keep you guessing and all those things running around... and "all my pauses they're all stops anyway" you would say... and 'all pauses they're all stops anyway and i could really use a win' oh princess you act like the answer with your hands all over me promising to be here when the world comes down with all those things running around... and "all my pauses they're all stops anyway" you would say... and "oh, i could really use the win.. i could really use the win" i don't mind, baby just spill your secrets on me... i don't mind, baby... just spill your secrets on me... i don't mind, baby oh princess. you're ready for greatness all edited and weightless never more alive and oh dear how they'll whisper your name in time [back to top] weight of it all I'm weak when you miss me when you roll me on your tongue.. When you whisper me your best moves i almost believe you but you don't know me at all I'm covered by lovers, who recite lines convinced their bodies are gonna save mine but you don't know me at all.. Show me where the sun comes through the sky I'll show you where the rain gets in and I'll show you hurricanes and they way that summer fades... underneath the weight of it all i spent days stupid nailed to your floor and i spent nights pushed against you trying to keep warm but you don't know me at all. Show me where the sun comes through the sky I'll show you where the rain gets in and I'll show you hurricanes and the way that summer fades underneath the weight of it all [back to top] bent if i bent like you said was best, would that change a thing? if i spent myself... or what's left would you still leave me here? you're so sorry about it all now that it's over.. should i thank you for that dear? you're so sorry about it all... and i hope you'll always be. i remember you best hating all the boys who got to you and all the things they took that you'd kept for yourself every car crash, every misstep, every word you're so sorry about it all now that it's over.. Should i thank you for that dear? you're so sorry about it all... and i hope you'll always be always be. i remember you best hating all the boys who got to you and all the things they took from you again... it's all wrong...all wrong [back to top] STILL WAITING FOR SPRING Parade Hooray, Hooray Here comes the parade Someday, someday I'll spit these thoughts out Before they stain me Finally, they're here for me I've been waiting now for days Hooray, hooray?.hooray [back to top] Wings She said, "Lately, fallings been easy on me..a lot like breathing used to be and call me crazy, but I was thinking maybe you'd be waiting on the ground to come and catch me and you come around here you open up your wings and I'm drowning you open up your wings and I'm gone" She said, "Maybe you're all the same you say you'll never leave until you're gone again and little pieces fall away and I am left the fool clobbered and clumsy and slowly fading and you come around here you open up your wings and I'm drowning you open up your wings and I'm gone" [back to top] Lucky Boy Took your words like you said I should and look at what good they've done me I've played support system, you played victim and look at what good it's done and you trip me up leave me standing with your akward, untouchable lips It's a cruel world, I've found It's a cruel world, but I'm a lucky boy You're so glorious, a waste of time You're the safety in lying You are radiator heat, you're the winter blankets sleep You're the excuse that I use when I want to stop trying And start waiting for the sky to fall They tell me it's a cruel world that I've found It's a cruel world and I'm a lucky boy You're not gold to me I was wrong You're not gold and there'll be Centuries left when you're gone. [back to top] Loud You win, I quit I'm certain you let my hands Wander your hips? Just to leave me desperate now I remember your thread thin arms I remember your hands And how easily it seemed to me That they could rip me open Baby, I'm falling away Baby, I'm falling away Wasted my Septembers with you stuck up in my head Raced the days closed in the hopes that the mornings would swell again Don't offer me rewards dear, that's a weight that I don't need I've seen stronger men draped over your shoulder So filled with praises, to drunk to leave Baby, I'm falling away Baby, I'm falling away You were always good at putting words together About how you always liked me better when I never came around You were always good at putting words together And wearing them loud [back to top] Answering Machine I met a new one and she looks just like you She gives me everything that you didn't want to And maybe I don't need saving after all She sticks in my ribs almost better than you did And maybe I'm tired or maybe she glows I wonder if you're still defending I wonder if you're still defending Met someone with your eyes and skin I can convince her of everything And baby, it's so delicious you should Come here and see for yourself "I'm gone", you said, "if this is all there is? You'll never shine alone And I wonder if you're still defending I wonder if you're still defending You've been so wrong For so long now (I can fall alone if all if I can fall away) I've kissed others lips And they promised me healing It's easy if you try [back to top] Then I'll Be Smiling Trailed by a mess Of masking tape construction paper And the best of intentions He tried to patch up every hole as he went Back and forth and back again And his friends half full of half concerns Embarrassed looks and tired words They burrowed deeper into the ignorant Little lives they preferred And he envied their distance Their lack of concern He thought, Once I shed the whole of me Once I shed the whole of me Then I'll be smiling He cursed himself And his instinct to nurse Every idea to health And all of the falls that he'd spent Trying to coax his name from the mouths Of success He thought Once I shed the whole of me Once I shed the whole of me Then I'll be smiling. They litter me with small awareness' Then they ask if I'm good enough They litter me with small awareness' Just to wake me up Why do the fools wake me up? [back to top] More Than This "What a spoiled boy I've been My mouth full, mess, my arms outstreched I've got palm sweat, I'm smiling like I'm Competition Well, maybe I'm yours" She said, "I know you, you're a salesman's son And you're pimping pretty junk" And I said, "What am I supposed to do They've built the scenes around you And I need more than this" And she said, "what am I supposed to do Look at what's been come of you And I need more than this" "Go on then, hitch me up, baby, If what I am is not enough Because I do love the glow you get When you're told word for word How to think for yourself "I'm tired Of baring my teeth when I smile" [back to top] Everything You Say It Sounds Like Gospel I've got bravery that shorts out on me I see superstars in common thieves And I see all you give up And I try to be as much Everything you say it sounds like gospel Everything you say it sounds like gospel to me I feel cheated Tangled up repeatedly Owed a piece of everything And Still you come around With scissors to cut me down Everything you say it sounds like gospel Everything you say it sounds like gospel to me It's all I can do to win for you [back to top] Amazing Again I must be glorious I must be a sight to see Oh maybe you could comfort me And I come to you strangled In things I'm told are flattering Maybe you could come and comfort me And all the wan, hip, full lipped lovers Are locked against one another And I waiver, uncomfortable in my skin Wait here for me I'll be back for more and you'll see And maybe, I'll be saved And amazing again You called us perfect Because we slipped into awkward so easily So maybe you could comfort me And I've been better than this before I know you've seen me be So maybe you could come and comfort me [back to top] Little Victories This time, I'll be sailing No more bailing boats for me I'll be out there on the sea Just my confidence and me And I'll be awful sometimes Weakened to my knees But I'll learn to get by On little victories This time, I'll have no fear I'll be standing strong and tall Turn my back towards them all And I'll be awful sometimes Weakened to my knees And I'll learn to get by On the little victories And if the world decides to catch up with me Still little victories [back to top] NOT COLORED TOO PERFECT All Been Said Before I am held together by clothes pins and tension, a wealth of odds and ends I'm dazzling like the neon street signs hiccuping off and on again all night long I've got magazine friends and enough jealousy to lose them But I know this has all been said before I shed what escape my fiction provided I lived a lifetime inside of my shelter and thought it about time to see outside it And I believed it was easy, stupidly thought I could just get up and walk away I've got illness hugging me like skin and I'll shed it clean until I can taste the oxygen. [back to top] Church Clothes I've spent more than my share on temptations Trying to cool my swollen tongue Gorged myself on all that free good will and left the others none What I wear like church clothes, you wear just like jewelry All the simple things you revel in, they just suffocate me And I don't know anymore, wish someone would tell me who to be Because I'm ready to try anything I'm dazzled by glamour and camera angles, the drama and swagger of fools sacrificed beauty once to chase after their parade and spent my morning after crawling back to you I want to be brand new, I want to trade in these wings Mine don't work like yours do [back to top] New Coats and New Hats I remember crowds where you stand alone right now I remember celebrations But now my reign has run all the color from all my decorations And I'm fine; I'm just a little lonely So can I ride on your back for a time? Oh, the seasons change so quickly these days And while the rest in their new coats and new hats shiver in their beds You stand outside and watch the clouds go by in the same clothes I met you in [back to top] Wait Up I recall your kisses and they tasted just like medicine I put all the pieces back together in my head Seems so obvious now how fragile a thing we had And all the leaves were on the ground that fall, the leaves were all around And you fed me stories and you polished up your bruises until they shined It kind of made me wish that I had a bruise so fine I've watched you twice rebuild your life, why don't you wait up for me I stumble, why don't you wait up for me With your childs smile and your innocence I'd buy you bows and ribbons, the prettiest bows and ribbons I made you like a queen with all the gifts I'd given You're a debutante and all you've got is a head full of someone else's thoughts. [back to top] You're Smiling You're smiling but I sense fear when you say, abandon ship and there's land near And the water is deep around my knees, but still I don't believe. At another time I would have followed you anywhere, but not now You said I was a shackle to you, well you always say the most violent things, my dear. You're smiling as you climb into another idea of what it means to be you And I'm supposed to follow and I'm not supposed to mind that you keep leaving me behind. You said that I was a shackle to you well you always say the vilest things, my dear. [back to top] Miracles They built a hero out of expectations and what a hopeless hero was he with sticks for legs he shook when the wind blew, even slightly and he welcomed the smiles, he welcomed the applause and he hoped that they d never forget just who they thought he was they dressed him up in rich man s clothes and told him he was beautiful then they expected miracles His parents were pleased they went to all the parties he was groomed for greatness from the time he was young raised on a diet of television he was taught to listen, kept dumb and he welcomed desire and reckless luxury and the world soaked up every drop of drama and insecurity they dressed him up in rich man s clothes and told him he was beautiful then they expected miracles and then one day his admirers just quit him they packed up their paint and were gone and he stood alone, their beautiful disaster, wondering were he'd gone wrong and he wanted the smiles and he wanted the applause but no one would look him in the eye now, no one returned his calls they dressed him up in rich man's clothes and told him he was beautiful then they expected miracles [back to top] Clean Am I pretty enough for you now that my ribs show through? With a little makeup I can look brand new, but can I be pretty enough for you? Fill me with secrets and I'll never tell fatten me up, and I'll feed you well you can polish me perfectly and I'll shine pristine but not even a cherub is this clean Am I all that you d hoped that I would be, hanging on obediently to the words that I'm finding so hard to believe? Am I all that you d hoped that I would be? Why don't you just stop me if I'm sounding ungrateful Why don't you stop me if I'm coming on a bit too strong. [back to top] Somewhere to Hide She said come along with me, I've got offerings for you my sweet, sweet boy she promised warmth too, but I knew better her words broke hot against my neck and tasting the sweet, sweet numb of regret on my lips I filled my pockets and closed the door and I tasted all I'd left behind, but shameful I crawled naked Searching for somewhere to hide And in the end she said it was memorable and comfortable but funny, I wouldn't have used those words the secrecy and her bed, it was choking me with a knot in my gut you have beautiful empty eyes, I'm sure of that much Oh princess open your eyes and close your mouth else all that spite you swallow willingly , it just might fall out and I've seen you smile wide, I've seen you at your best and it left me feeling sick inside and unimpressed and I tasted all I'd left behind, but shameful I crawled naked Searching for somewhere to hide back to top Vandalized: written by bill foreman Well, it's late at night. There's nobody around. Just the sounds of the cars Upon the asphalt ground. It's the waiting time, When the hours grow still. I gaze on through the glass Inside my windowsill. Though I know that you must be Somewhere in this world, In this place where, at birth, You and I were both hurled, To think that we once were relating Is a thing that has almost grown foreign to me. It's a bad sight, Such a terrible waste, To spend your time talking In such bad taste. It's the same old line, Though it's not you I blame. It's your teachers and television That you put to shame. The night's lasting longer Because I've filled my head With the things I could have done And the words I could have said. But, in truth, I was only spectating And that's a permanent part of reality. So many rude lines, So many petty crimes And you don't feel a need To apologize. Tonight is the time That you stick in my mind, But from now on I won't become Vandalized. Now the room's started filling With the dawn's early light And the end has arrived Of this long night. I turn off the television And I hit the bed While your shade is still haunting My ever-vulnerable head. And there's no use In trying to compromise When the kindest things we say But it's time I should quit my complaining And behave with a little more dignity. So many rude lines, So many petty crimes And you don't feel a need To apologize. Tonight is the time That you stick in my mind, But from now on I won't become Vandalized. back to top Trace of a Cat's Eye when the leaves have changed, when the world around you starts to grow deranged, the faces that you see are looking strange, and your principles have all been rearranged, when only tears remain, in the residue the ruins of your brain. start looking for a way you can explain, though the reasons should've made themselves quite plain. and then you'll think of me, in the moment when we'd almost broken free. your mind will start its drifting wistfully, to the corner of your heart nobody sees. back to top First Time I'm ready to embrace this, I'm ready for repair I've got so many layers left by amateur painters who covered over what was there I stuffed myself sick on your memory and the beautiful mess we'd made But I'm so tired of being inspired only when things slip away They told me time would strip it all free and leave me bone dry They told me time would strip it all free but I'm no better than when I left here the first time I'm ready to erase this, I'm ready to begin Spent myself trying to change all the beauty we d made just to want it all back again And with the clouds moving in, this hardly looks like the same moon And with the leaves all gone the trees that once stood strong now look pinched and cruel [back to top] Church Clothes I've spent more than my share on temptation trying to cool my swollen tongue Gorged myself on all that free good will and left the others none What I wear like church clothes, you wear just like jewelry All the simple things you revel in, they just suffocate me And I don't know anymore, wish someone would tell me who to be Because I'm ready, I'm ready to try anything I'm dazzled by glamour and camera angles, the drama and swagger of fools sacrificed beauty once to chase after their parade and spent my morning after crawling back to you I want to be brand new, I want to trade in these wings Mine don't work like yours do [back to top] We'll Recover I got your letter this morning, got your letter alright It claimed clarity but came in screaming and I was soaked clean through How could we ever let it get this far? To leave us nothing dear but sickness Me with mine and you with yours And when we can see things clearer than we think we see them now Maybe kiss each other sweetly without trying to bite down Maybe then all this will be better & maybe then we ll recover It s funny because I promised myself that this would never happen again I'd been warned and I'd been told, but it s these moments of clarity that cripple me most You said I was tiresome, with heels dug deep, reciting my lines All tarred in make-up and glazed in light [back to top] Measure For Measure She said she felt clean, sticky clean if I remember She said she felt funny asking and he said he felt funny saying no... but he said no Alone, she shrank away Beautiful sun, elegant bright light shining I will not lay down with you that easy She spat anxiously, look here at my recommendations She unfolded the page in front of him and smoothed it with her hand, as he looked away Alone she seethed inside Beautiful sun, elegant bright light shining I will not lay down with you that easy She said nervously, I must have been mistaken She laughed loud between the apologies she left ringing in his head, as she walked away Alone he fought with his fidelity [back to top] New Coats and New Hats I remember crowds where you stand alone right now I remember celebrations But now my reign has run all the color from all my decorations And I'm fine; I'm just a little lonely So can I ride on your back for a time? Oh, the seasons change so quickly these days And while the rest in their new coats and new hats shiver in their beds You stand outside and watch the clouds go by in the same clothes I met you in [back to top] All Been Said Before I am held together by clothes pins and tension, a wealth of odds and ends I'm dazzling like the neon street sign hiccuping off and on again all night long I've got magazine friends and enough jealousy to lose them all But I know this has all been said before I shed what escape my fiction provided I lived a lifetime inside of my shelter and thought it about time to see outside And I believed it was easy, stupidly thought I could just get up and walk away I've got illness hugging me like skin and I'll shed it clean until I can taste the oxygen. [back to top] Wide Eyed and Full Lately I can t tell my friends from my enemies when it use to seem so clear I tried rebellion once and look where it s gotten me Banging apologies against your deaf ears And she said, "sing me a sweet song tonight, sing me a new song tonight" We used to lie side by side and I would cover myself in you We used to lie, but I'm no longer so wide-eyed and full Lately, I can't tell where all this is taking me I'm spilling over and spitting spiteful words There was a time once when I understood my cruelty, but now I'm not so sure. [back to top] Miracles They built a hero out of expectations and what a hopeless hero was he with sticks for legs he shook when the wind blew, even slightly and he welcomed the smiles, he welcomed the applause and he hoped that they'd never forget just who they thought he was they dressed him up in rich man's clothes and told him he was beautiful then they expected miracles His parents were pleased they went to all the parties he was groomed for greatness from the time he was young raised on a diet of television he was taught to listen, kept dumb and he welcomed desire and reckless luxury and the world soaked up every drop of drama and insecurity they dressed him up in rich man's clothes and told him he was beautiful then they expected miracles and then one day his admirers just quit him they packed up their paint and were gone and he stood alone, their beautiful disaster, wondering were he'd gone wrong and he wanted the smiles and he wanted the applause but no one would look him in the eye now, no one returned his calls they dressed him up in rich man's clothes and told him he was beautiful then they expected miracles [back to top] Somewhere to Hide She said "come along with me, I've got offerings for you my sweet, sweet boy" she promised warmth too, but I knew better her words broke hot against my neck and tasting the sweet, sweet numb of regret on my lips I filled my pockets and closed the door and I tasted all I'd left behind, then shameful I crawled naked Searching for somewhere to hide And in the end she said it was memorable and comfortable but funny, I wouldn't have used those words the secrecy and her bed, it was choking me with a knot in my gut you have beautiful empty eyes, I'm sure of that much Oh princess open your eyes and close your mouth else all that spite you swallow willingly , it just might fall out and I've seen you smile wide, I've seen you at your best and it left me feeling sick inside and unimpressed and I tasted all I'd left behind, but shameful I crawled naked Searching for somewhere to hide [back to top] Maid Hello, my foul weather friend. These thick sheets of rain seem to have hindered your way again and the winds, I can feel the winds, they've gotten so strong, no wonder You're back to our home. My ears are always open to your laments and my will is always weak for your advances, and I'll play the maid and clean up the mess Your face, I look at your face and it's changed since we last spoke it s weathered and beautiful, so weathered and so beautiful please have a seat, I was going anywhere but that can wait because I'd rather have you here while I can then I'll pack it all up and take you with me again My ears are always open to your laments and my will is always weak for your advances, and I'll play the maid and clean up the mess I wasn't like anyone else so real and so strong, so you said it's always," welcome back, I'll take your bags " things haven't changed much since you left my side and though your rooms been unoccupied, I have tried to give it up. So here are my ears again and here are my arms and here are my hopes again, just please keep coming back. [back to top] STILL WAITING FOR SPRING Solace and Pain I'm so confused by what I have and what I want, But I can't stand alone without your help I'm afraid of the truth that I might find when I look inside myself, But I can't stand alone without your help And what once gave me solace, now only gives me pain I over estimated your emotions again How easily we can fool ourselves and see things that just aren't there Tangle up our emotions until it seems that people truly care It's been out of my hands now for so long and there's nothing I could have done And jealousy s an emotion that I'll have to learn to overcome And what once gave me solace now only gives me pain I overestimated your emotions again Distance and silence, how do they make you feel? Well they hurt me. [back to top] Continue Dreaming I shouldn't need to wish that I am all I am not I shouldn't need to always offer you my thoughts, but I do And I've opened myself up to the wrong and felt that pain And I've opened myself all up to you and felt the same Please don't explain, just let me continue dreaming You understand what hurts me but I was the one who made that known And now it seems my time is over and I need some time alone And I've opened myself up to the wrong and felt that pain And I've opened myself all up to you and felt the same Please don't explain, just let me continue dreaming Why must I be affected by the words of those who know not what they've said? You're no longer someone I'll remember but someone I'll regret. [back to top] King of the Mountain I've been fascinated with lost love for sometime now and I'm not quite sure why I've been waking up to the images that I thought I'd left behind But they're just as clear, and just as naive as they were before But now they seem more beautiful, the past always seems more beautiful I'm not the same child that I once was I left my compassion on the side of the road when I learned the power of ego and confidence, all to please you But I'm sure that you regret it now I'm sure that You regret me now Because I do. All my desire and all my innocence burned away Just the evil remains, just the judgement remains And here I stand king of the mountain, all alone, surrounded by pain that I brought on myself. [back to top] Broken How ironic it all seems because I remember you telling me about other lovers running out of words to say to each other and how beautiful you thought it was and I agreed that would never happen to you and me so here we sit in silence, searching our heads for common ground we've rehashed the past and beaten it down left us with nothing, no present, no future I still read your letter and all that evil makes me sick But this is regimented pain and it gives me the illusion that I have lived I was the one that pushed you off the pedestal I put you on And with my arms still outstretched I watched you fall And break apart like glass on the highway I realized my mistake a bit too late Because I'd never risk picking up the pieces, Jesus look at them all I'd never risk picking up all those goddamn pieces because I lose control at the sight of my own blood I still read your letter, and all that bullshit makes me sick But this is regimented pain and it gives me the illusion that I have lived [back to top] Illusions I believe in your strength, though I understand you've felt alone Because when you need a friend there's no one strong to fall back on and your past will still burden you but I'll hold you through the pain In the end it's just you with your memories and your scars Fall on me if you ever forget how beautiful you are I believe in your words and your eyes and when you speak of your dreams I realize that I will envy whoever you give your heart to So in the end it s not just you with your memories and your scars Fall on me if you ever forget how beautiful you are And I will never let you fade away And I want you to know that I love you for all you are and all that you'll be. [back to top] Hold Me Hold me Save me from myself I claim to be so righteous but I'm just like everyone else I was judging you when I realized just how big a lie I lead Hold me I truly wish you could follow me in my walk through brilliance But I've grown so much hollower and the paths have all grown dense With vines of green, the color of envy With vines of green, the color of jealousy And it s funny but I hate it when you steal the spotlight from me Hold me I've no patience for hypocrites, I have no patience for fakes I've no patience for those who make my same mistakes So hold me [back to top] Never Forget My Memories I have to stop feeling so sorry for myself But I always have to lean on my own shoulder Because I can't lean on anyone else And it hurts so much to misunderstand and I'm always misunderstood But I'll never forget my memories, even though I should I have to learn that I can't have all that I once did Because I kept reaching for security that you couldn't afford to give And it hurts so much to misunderstand, and I'm always misunderstood But I'll never forget my memories, even though I should [back to top] Lost Myself in Search of You I was holding you so tight and you were holding me So wrapped up in the moment I was feeling such security And the first few weeks felt just like heaven, but I never really seemed to get that high So now I sit here laughing at the time that past me by. It s times like these, when I feel I'm on my knees begging please don't go. And as you slipped away I couldn't admit that we were through As you slipped away I found I lost myself in search of you I was holding you so tight and you were holding him But you left the door so wide open that I was sure you'd come back in And now the only time I can hold you is in my mind And that doesn't seem to fill me up inside So yes I felt lonely and yes I felt a need And you seemed to feel it necessary to make me see That I was wrong and you were right And that all my attempts were in vain But I was pretty sure you'd turn around and want me back again And as you slipped away I couldn't admit that we were through As you slipped away I found I lost myself in you I was holding you so tightly when you needed help I guess insecurities catch up to you when You're lying to yourself But I wasn't lying when I told you all that you could be But it was no use, you never really ever listened to me I was holding you so tight but now I've let you go. [back to top] Pity Don't touch, leave me here I don't need your sympathy and I don't need your tears I haven't slept for days now, maybe more Just leave me here in selfishness, close the door If you hold me, I might find it safe If you hold me, I just might cling to you If you hold me, I'll be no good on my own My control will be gone don't look, I don't need your support You see I've built this wall around myself and it keeps me up I won't be babied, so please don't baby me Just leave me in my corner, I created all this misery If you hold me, I might find it safe If you hold me, I just might cling to you If you hold me, I'll be no good on my own My control will be gone I'm not faithful, don't fool yourself I won't change for you know or anybody else Let me fall Let me fall, let me realize all the things I'm missing Let me crawl Crawl on back to you and the dreams we had together [back to top] Lie I don't feel much like talking to you tonight I'd rather not let you twist my words around again until they give you something to feel I would rather keep my distance, thank you very much What do you want? Do you want my apologies? Do you want me to tell you I'm wrong? Because I won't I won t feed your melodrama and I won t be a part of your game But thank you very much Please fix your own lie before you start attacking mine You can call me your friend if that s the kind of security that you need We all look for it in different ways Just don't persecute me, thank you very much Please fix your own lie before you start attacking mine don't you see that I will be all that you want me to be don't you see that I will be all that you envisioned me to be But I refuse to be raped Until I confess all that you want me to hear Then consoled and told that it will be alright Because it s not all right, I don't have the energy and I don't have the strength To take on your emotional weight So please fix your own lie before you start attacking mine [back to top] Naked I'm so tired but you probably don't even know what I mean I'm full of contradictions and hypocrisies I'm so tired I don't even know which side of the fighting I'm on And if I wanted no part of it, you d say I was doing something wrong Today was just like yesterday and the day before I've been taking myself so goddamn seriously and I can't recall what for I can t feel the sunshine anymore I'm so tired of bitching to myself and wrapping up my emotions to please everyone else I'm so tired of bitching at all because life becomes so cynical when You're waiting to fall And I'm waiting to fall Today was just like yesterday and the day before I've been taking myself so goddamn seriously and I can't recall what for I can t feel the sunshine anymore I'm so inspired but you know short-lived inspiration can be I'll brag about my self-improvement which just ends up lost inside of me I've no faith in justice, corrupted by wealth And I've no faith in my peers, only a fading faith inside myself [back to top] Don't Worship Me don't worship me, I'm not what you need My words are my words, nothing more I love and hate just like you I'm beautiful and weak just like you I worship too But disciples are such useless vessels Empty and scarred and ready to receive I'm here on my soapbox, listen to me No, I'm here on my tip toes&push me don't try to fuck me or conquer me Just see me, I'm beautiful and weak just like you. [back to top] Harbor My idols are cracking and breaking apart piece by piece I brush their dust off my pedestal and through the cloud I've kicked up I can just make out your face In a world of plastic people, I know You're real I'm just a confused child, a ball of raw emotions shouting my hollow threats at you I'll kick and I'll scream and I'll call you names But when my storm blows over you ll always hold me the same In a world full of bullshit emotions, I know you feel I can fall far away from my judgments I can fall far away from my ignorance When you cradle me in your arms In a world of plastic people, I know You're real In a world of bullshit emotions, I know you feel Under blankets, under the shelter of your skin, you warm me from within I never want to leave your arms for this long again. [back to top]